Friday, May 27, 2016

Here We Go Again...

It's been months since my last post and a lot has happened. I've tried time and time again to write, and failed each attempt. I fell under depression, and was really confused as to how I was supposed to live after Cancer. I was miserable at work, and thought a lot about a career change. I was also in a lot of physical pain, getting worse and worse as the weeks passed by. Something I kept asking myself was, where does the paranoia end and the cancer begin? I reached out to my doctor and was told I shouldn't worry, three months later she was wrong. 

I was diagnosed with cancer for the second time on Wednesday May 25, 2016. I'm as distraught as the first time, but I'm mostly angry. Angry at the the fact that doctors don't listen to me or take my worries seriously. I'm angry at how careless they are, even though our lives are in their hands; and they know this. But I refuse to let cancer take me, I'm prepared to fight this stubborn disease again. I will face it without fears, as God is more powerful than anything in this world and He is by my side. 

With that being said, I will document every step of treatment on this blog. If someone reading this is going through the same thing, I want you to know you're not alone. My only hope is to be able to give others strength to keep fighting...we will beat this, we will win.