Sunday, January 31, 2016

Taking It Back To CALICO

Today I'm taking it back to June 2015, to one of my first big adventures after chemo. I remember being super excited after the last of my chemo left my body, and all the symptoms began to go away. I could finally go out without getting tired, my allergies went away; I felt normal. This trip to Calico was definitely a milestone for me, it was the first time I was out in public without a head scarf. At this point my hair was starting to grow back, but I still felt real insecure......to be honest, I still do. I didn't intentionally take my scarf off, I was forced to. The day was soooo hot! We were in Calico where it was over 100 degrees plus humidity. I had never sweat the way I did that day, it was disgusting. 

At first I refused to take it off, but I got to a point where I didn't care what people thought. I'm proud of being a cancer survivor. Once it was off, I felt liberated and chains were broken. I also felt a lot cooler from the heat! I think it's important to remind myself that being "normal" is different for each individual person. My definition of normal that day, was being able to enjoy my day without feeling sick regardless of what I looked like. As my hair continues to grow and my cancer journey stays in the past, I will always look back to pictures. I will make sure to never forget. 

      
      
                                     
       
        
        
        
        
        
                                   
      
      
      

Saturday, January 2, 2016

Ta-Moxifen Or Not Ta-Moxifen?... That Is The Question

All of my cancer treatments have finally come to an end and I'm doing my HAPPY DANCE!! I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can finally start living again. Now the big question was whether I was moving forward with Tamoxifen or not. My instant response was "Heck No!!". After months and months of delegating, I gave in and I'm 2 and a half weeks into taking the pill. The written side effects are really horrible, but if this means I get to continue to live a cancer free life, I will take it like a champ! So far it hasn't been too bad, just mild headaches, hot flashes and nausea. I'm really hoping it doesn't get much worse than this, because I can handle this! 

I remind myself every night I take the pill, "This pill is going to keep me cancer free". I try to be as optimistic as possible taking it, and that is the only way I can do it. 

New Year, New life and I'm so happy to be alive!!